RAW....

What a change of pace... I forgot how quickly time can fly and the experiences of life can simply take over what you were doing and who you are.. When you finally realize what is going on you realize that you haven't posted on your blog in almost 5 months.

In that time I completed my second semester of grad school... taking 15 units (way too many) and working full time all the while finishing with 3 A's and 2 A-'s:) Not too shabby. After that semester I was quickly thrusted into my summer session and its been challenging to get my head in the game when all I want to do is vacation... But I know that when I get to the finish line I can truly jump for joy with all the effort and time that I put into this:)

I am apparently obsessed with smiley cons. I am realizing this from that last paragraph. Note to self its cheesey.

23 is the new me. I still feel like I am 21 and from time to time I actually catch myself saying "oh I am 21". It's funny how a number can define where you should be in your life. Like my Oma "She was married at my age" and my mother "I was traveling". I suppose your number doesn't have to be the same as anyone elses you can create the number to fit you. I am 23 proud of where I am...

I am 23... Single... and working at two places that I love. I was thumbing through the idea of marriage since that is the latest trend most of my friends are embarking on a few are even having babies. I am thrilled that they are there in their lives... but when I think about it I literally CAN NOT see myself doing that... Maybe I am immature and I will accept that whole heartedly... maybe I am fearful... which is more likely... whatever the reason I am a "flight risk with a fear of falling"

I find myself dreaming of foreign places and gypsy adventures... Taking the outback by storm... hitting the dusty trail with my horse. The places I seek are with myself and myself only. I am trying to figure out it is that I am experiencing if it is some kind of self denial of feeling but I have never felt more in LOVE. I am head over heals in Love with God! I find myself wanting nothing more to read his word and pray....

This time last year I was in INDIA. Experiencing a whole new kind of life. Maybe I am craving to be out of my comfort zone. I feel like this blog posting has no structure... Which is cool cause it is raw undisturb and interpreted feelings but the lack of structure makes my OCD kick in.

I am probably going to leave with this food for thought....

"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."~2 Corinthians 4:16-18