The art of tangled vines...

Vines.

Life is very similar to vines. The way they get tangled if they are not cared for.

The way they creep and slither and do the most unruly sort of things when no one is watching.

But these very vines that snake their way around and seem to never end.

Are the very vines that bring life to fruit.

"He will be like a vine stripped of its unripe grapes, like an olive tree shedding its blossoms."

Job 15:33

The very fruit that these vines produce are like vanity. Some fruit is good yet some is bad. Whether, you keep the good is up to you. I know that I have had to clean out some of that "unripe" fruit that is holding me back from being beautiful in his eyes.

Which brings to the current dilemma.. It seems as the end of the year is fast approaching. And the girl that started this blog has long since grown into a budding woman whose heart lies with one... The Alpha, Omega, and the everlasting King.

There seems to be decisions I have to make.

Along the road, I have been hurt, hurt others and ignored a few. But all the while still claimed to be a follower of Christ. How can one that doesn't forgive still be following the ultimate forgiver???

Which leads me to my next point.. Why not now? Why not throw my pride to the side and ask everyone I have hurt or everyone that has hurt me to forgive me...

So with that, some maybe receiving emails or voicemail's asking for forgiveness. Asking to replant a friendship that was once there. When I start the new year I want to know that every seed was sown and every effort was made to create a garden full of blossoming friendships...

Are you ready to take the challenge as well???

Where flowers bloom so does hope.
- Lady Bird Johnson

Hello World..

Have you ever been inspired by a music video? I can say I have more than once now. My inspiring song and video is "Hello World" by Lady Antebellum. It just a great reminder how quickly life can change and if you don't take the time to look around and appreciate all that you have it may quickly pass you by or worse you may loose it.

There is just 11 days till Christmas! And of course I haven't even begun to head toward the stores. I can say that my feet are still dragging to head to the battle field.

This past weekend, I was so blessed to see my Uncle, Aunt and their kids. Its amazing how much they have grown, I can still remember them being little infants and caring them around the house. I wish we lived closer because I would want to spend more time seeing them. But it was a good family day that I enjoyed oh so very much.

Interesting facts: This is the very last week of my first semester as a grad student and although the semester has been one of providential growth, I have been having difficulty writing. But I guess with time I will progress to a better writer... Hopefully:)

Another fact, I am reading through Job right now. I know its about the faith of Job, how he lost everything but still never cursed God. But in Chapter 7 verse 14 I had a moment were I related it to something bigger.

"I despise my life; I would not live forever. Let me alone; my days have no meaning."

So after reading this it came to me... What if you were out of relationship with God during times oh struggle and hardship. Would you curse the skies? What would be the meaning of life if it weren't for a bigger purpose? I think about all those who would rather be alone than with and my heart breaks for them. How lost would you feel if you had no meaning? This makes me realize ever more that those that are lost have no hope and even though they may be "with" their family or "with" their friends, they are never "with" HIM!

I pray that I may be used, that barriers will be brought down, that mountains will still be able to move, that he provided me with the chance to see a nation and a world at unrest so that they may become at peace with his love.

In all this, In all that is in his provision, I find hope in what I see... In family, in friends and in the painting that we call the world but I see as a image of a great artist.May your journey through the flower fields be long, may you never cease to see where you are going, and never forget where you came...

Dried Flowers...

How do you tell someone "No." Is there anyone else out there that has this problem. I think it is so odd that I have this problem... I have no problem telling how I feel about certain world ideas but when it gets the personal issues why can't I just speak the truth.

I am so worried about what the other person is feeling that I don't think about what I am feeling or thinking. So what should one do when you want to say no when you feel like you cant...

Praying that I find the answer to that...

Oh fact of the night went on Santa Runs for the city and was the body guard for the reindeer and the elf. Who can have that on there resume? Not many I am sure.

Trying to find the beauty within the dried flower fields... Have you ever wondered whether or not beauty can be found when all is gone. What is beauty? They say it is in the eye of the beholder.. But I wonder whether or not the beholder has the same problem as me the inability to see the truth. That you can't have it all and one day your field of chances will dry out. Wow that sounds so morbid. I guess I am just at a loss right now trying to figure out what to do.

Dried flowers come and go just as the ocean tide goes high and low...

I don't need a lot for Christmas...

Its December! The time when the world speeds up lines get longer and bank accounts run dry... But this time of the year is one of my favorites. I love the cold weather. I love cuddling in blankets and making tent houses to play in while the fire is burning. But my favorite part is that family and friends are brought together to celebrate the life we can have because of the birth of our Savior...

I met with one of the professors at CBU the other day. He is in charge of the program I am in. It was a awesome encounter and I can truly say the more I understand the vastness of the world and what I can do for the people I get a sense of contentment of knowing I am living for more than myself. I am in preparation for the WORLD!

God has had his hand right in my life lately and the providential moments that have arisen because of his handy-work have brought on a even more appreciated contentment with what I am so immersed in.

I have been writing a dialogue that goes over the world views of Judaism, Mormonism, Christianity, and Hinduism. When I was writing about the purpose of life from the Mormon's view I got a ring at the door bell and low and behold God had sent two missionaries from the LDS church. It was beyond awesome. I am sure I scared those boys with my in depth questions I wish I would have taken some more time to ask more questions but I trust that the Lord will provide many more opportunities. Still it was an awesome encounter!

"The grass wither and the flowers fall, but the word of our God stands forever"

Isaiah 40:8

Till the next time we meet... I hope that even though flowers are hard to find and the season has limited them for you, try to find some joy knowing that they may be gone now but they will come back until then God is always constant.

Here is my favorite Christmas song...

YESHU!!! I call upon YESHU!!!!

Fact! I really need to write down my passwords for my accounts I seriously forget them all the time!!!

So I am so sad that my last blog was done right before I left on the trip that seriously changed my entire life. I am contemplating on whether or not to talk about my trip or just go into what I am doing now... Things to consider... It was a while ago... It is a long story.... but It does go into directly what I am doing now...

I just give you a snip it... This is what I wrote on my last day in India. We were in a coffee house discussing and summarizing as a team what we did and what we thought. They told us to write it down. I haven't looked at it since that day!!!

"Well I can say quickly that it wasn't what I was expecting the culture was far beyond anything I can verbalize but what I can say is that God was a work with the people of India and we were his tool to spread the name of Jesus. From house visits to the in class setting the people here are yearning for relationships so to be able to build those relationships made my trip. It made the environment and the smells bearable made the dirt seem clean and made my broken heart full again when the name of Jesus or Yeshu was proclaimed. So how was my trip from the dirt and dust the smells... the children were the experience that made my trip."

Wow! Still breaks my heart and brings tears to my eyes... That time was one of the hardest things I had to go through, relatively speaking. But God knew what he was doing for sure. And because of my faith in Him I knew that whatever he was throwing my way was so that I could live my purpose.

Which brings us to what am I doing POST GRAD!!! I still work at the winery and at the city. But I have added school AGAIN!!!! I am now a Graduate student getting my MS in International Education at CBU. The experience of India made me realize that I was called for something bigger than I even gave myself credit for. Teaching abroad. It was never a passion of mine but every lesson I am learning about different world views makes me go back to Matthew 9:37 and how we are called to Go!

Praying and devotion have been my stronghold and as God as my cornerstone I know I can do it all. Even if I feel like I cant go on all I need is to seek refuge in Him. Because his love is unfailing. Good words to live by!!!!

I Was Here...

Tomorrow is the BIG DAY!!! Tomorrow, at this time I am going to go back to the grounds I just graduated from to meet at that globe and put my hand print on the world. I am embarking on my trip to South Asia. A three week journey that starts with a 18 hour flight...

So what have I been up to... well since the last time I posted lots have changed and happened. I am working three jobs. The first is lifeguarding for Special Olympics, second working for the city for the 5th year now as a lifeguard, swim teacher, and water aerobics instructor, and the third is a job at Miramonte Wineries were I work in the tasting room. I love all my jobs they all offer something different and challenging!

As far as the changing... I am not the same person that grabbed that diploma. I am a girl that wants just one thing in life... I don't want a fancy car, or a diamond ring, I don't want to live in a big house, I don't need to be a billionaire, I don't want to live a life that is meaningless... so this past month I have been focusing on what God wants me to do and what he has to offer me. I want to be able to look back on my life and say yes I glorified God and I was able to be used by him. Its hard.. Its not easy to do.. giving up your own desires for his, you may lose friends, you may gain friends, you may even change someone's life and be that inspiration to them. The life I am living is by no means easy but grain by grain I am letting go..

It reminds me of when you go to the beach and grab a handful of sand.. when you squeeze the sand and try to hold onto it.. it seems to fall from your hands more quickly.. I have tried to hold onto things hoping they can answer me but in the end if I just let it go and give it to God my life seems to hold more meaning without the garbage of the world.

I guess what I am saying is that I am ready to move on towards who I am supposed to be and I had to understand and let go of the things I can't control.

So what am I feeling right now... I am worried, I am anxious, excited and apprehensive for the journey I am about to embark on. I can't explain what it is but I have a feeling that this trip is going to do something for me bigger than I can even imagine. While I am away I hope that you all challenge yourselves to live a life that is meaningful instead of living for the meaningless..

"Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God."

Philippians 1:27-28

Till we meet again on this walk through some sunflower fields I hope you leave your mark on this world and stop every now and then to look back on where you have come and look forward to where you are going...

Im a College Grad!!!!

I graduated!!!! Its been 2 days since I made that walk down that grassy front lawn to receive my diploma... I still wake up thinking what school work do I have to do today. But I am done! I met great friends at CBU. I have my bestie Stephanie who never ceases to amaze me with her cut throat remarks but in the end we get and love each other. I wouldn't want to CUPID SHUFFLE with any one else!!! Jonathan is the one I can always go to with serious conversations and he doesn't mind listening to me go on and on and on. God has definitely had a hand in picking my friends. CT is just one of those guys you just can't live without! I haven't met anyone that can match my clumsiness till CT! Since grade school we have known each other but it was awesome getting to know him even better. Overall my friends here at CBU have inspired me. They have gotten me through the tough times and laughed at me during the great times. I will never forget them and I LOVE THEM ALL!!!!

PROVERBS 17:17 " A friend loves at all times"

Since graduating I have been cleaning, cleaning, cleaning... I am embarking on a new chapter in life so I decided that my room needs to represent the new me. I put all my childhood memories in a box and put them out in the barn... Everything from grade school through college are packed (unless of course it was homework, papers, tests, or notebooks that went to the trash man) old pictures, letters, love notes from previous relationships are stored away. Amazing how much stuff I could fit in my room.

Its a bittersweet feeling looking back on all the years but I am so excited to see what the future holds. I have a new outlook on life. I have fine tuned what is important in life and I finally realized that the only way to be truly happy is putting God first. I have never been more wide eyed about life and all it has to offer. I am truly blessed. I have friendships that will last a lifetime, a family that loves me through it all and a GOD who's unconditional love still amazes me.

In 21 days I leave for my ISP trip... I am so happy and nervous about it!!!! I know that God is working in my life and changing me and this trip will just be another tool to grow close to Him!!!

So I will leave you with this... ISAIAH 40:31

"but those who hope in the LORD

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint."

Do I hear a SIX???

So we are down to single digits!!!! Only six more days until GRADUATION DAY!!!!

I know its so cliche but college really did go by really fast. I remember how I wanted to hurry because I thought it would never end. And here I am only days away...

On a positive, I got offered a job at a winery that I had applied to a few months ago. I am starting as a wine sales girl on the floor but the manager wants me to start working on future events. Aka I get my dream job of planning parties, events and weddings:) How great is that!!!!

This summer I will be working two jobs! I am planning on saving all the money I make so that I can eventually make my way into buying my own place. I am getting into that stage of life where I need to spread my wings and fly.

My life is changing so much lately I can barely keep it all together... with my mind and heart going in all directions at the same time leaves me scatterbrained (more than usual for those of you who know me already). Every negative always has a positive... and I don't just have one!!!

1) I won tickets to game 4 Kings vs. Canucks

2) Our tickets were upgraded from nose bleed to two rows away from the ice

3) My job :)

4) I am down 15 lbs.

5) Graduation!!!

Trying to hold onto the positives:)

Can I get a TOP TEN!?!?!

Its been quite awhile since my last blog!!!! And that just means I am ever more closer to graduating!!! I am at the 12 days left mark and counting... I am a big Office fan and because of that I am easily influenced by what they do on the show.... From putting staplers in jello to simply yelling out "Thats what she said" but I am going to go above and beyond using Office as an influence... On graduation I decided that it would be appropriate to do as JIM AND PAM did at there wedding taking snap shots of important moments that they put in their own album. Of course, I am actually going to use a camera and then put it together with all the other memories I have racked up my college career...

Highlights from this year:

- Kayaking and witnessing Stephanie get attacked by a wave

- U of R visits ( enough said)

- LA Fair: baby goats, fried feast, t-shirt adventure and photo booth nightmare

- Baseball games

- Witnessing an engagement

- Getting attacked by killer wave while trying to pick up sea shells

-Yule adventure

- Iron Fence meet Jr

- Speeding ticket to a Speech and Debate Tourney

- The times shared laughing at each other over BWW!

There are so many more ... but those are a few of the little moments that either make me laugh hysterically or make me say "oooohhhh". Either way I have enjoyed every minute of this school year. I wonder what everyone else would say if they were given 10 minutes to list there TOP TEN favorite moments of their senior year...

Here, Here to options!!!!

You know what is so great about life... the options!

Options are endless!

You can have your steak medium or well done...

You can have your gas 87 grade or Premium...

You can chose between degree or no degree...

You even have the option of Verizon or At&t...

But most importantly you have the option to follow the crowd or follow the cross.

Now, I know I went from talking about steak to talking about faith but in a world that is so secular you can't help but wonder how many are forgoing the cross. I recently had epiphany about myself... I have been so interested in what others think of me that I have lost sight of what is important. I have followed the crowd and in doing so I have lost myself...

I am on a quest to find myself now! I feel like a adventurer about to embark on a journey and I am oh so excited to see where it leads me...

"Vaarwel! Mag mijn reis wordt met nieuwe bevindingen gezegend!"

My Oma taught me that today... it means "Farewell! May my journey be blessed with new findings"

A experiment...

So since I have been having sleepless nights and the big black bags under my eyes seem to be growing far bigger and far more permanent... I am going to experiment. My mother bought me some melatonin which is an aid for stress relief and sound sleeping. So tonight is the night I will give it a whirl. I am hoping for the best but worst case scenario would just be that I will find my self googling or reading my Bible.

Last night, while I was late night googling I came across this... I thought it was hilarious and I defiantly tried a few:)

I officially only have 29 days till I graduate! Funny thing is is that I just keep thinking about what if I just quit now?!?! Now, why would I have that idea? I really don't know to be honest. Maybe, its because I don't want to grow up or maybe its because I secretly want to be a failure! All I know is I am so close to graduating.... and the whole idea of being a grown up is too much for a girl to handle. I never want to grow up!!!!

I am reading the book of John now which so perfectly ties into Easter... But this morning during my morning devotions I took a look through Philippians and found this amazing verse...

I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection from the dead. Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me....Philippians 3:10-12

I am so blessed with what Christ has done for me and I am eternally grateful. I hope that with every day I strive to be more like him and although I may stumble and fall I know that in his eyes I am forgiven.

When 3:30 becomes 4:30

I think this is called sleep insomnia but I could be mistaken. For the past two nights I have had the luxury of waking up at 3:30... I hope this isn't a pattern. What do people do at this time? So I googled it... nothing exciting really came up. But when I typed in why do I keep waking up at this time... It got a little more interesting. This is one of the interesting ones...

There is no such thing as "the devil's hour". It is only considered this because either;

1) This is when the least amount of light exists on the planet.

2) 3pm is supposedly the hour Jesus died on the cross, so the opposite 3am is apparently the devil's hour.

3) Between the hours of 3-5am the most deaths occur than any other hour. But studies revealed that your body and your immune system is actually more vulnerable between 3-5 am. If a very sick patient had terminal illness, they would usually pass away early in the morning when their body is at the weakest point.

I hope this pattern goes away! If not then I always like watching this:)

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear ... "
1 John 4:18

But even if you should suffer for what is right, you are blessed. "Do not fear what they fear ; do not be frightened."
Take Courage
1 Peter 3:14

Dominos~

One turn, one seed, one small thing can set a change in your life. Its amazing how life can sometimes feel like a dominos course. It wraps and curves, goes up and down... and in the end if one is knocked down they all go and the whole pattern is changed. Similarly, life does that too... and one simple drop of a shoe can change your reality for better or for worse. Sounds daunting right? But I have been thinking how I can rest assured that no matter how many times I make a good decision or a not so good one, the Lord will always provide for me and help to see me through it all.

I am blessed beyond belief!

And the festivities continued...

I celebrated my official birthday on Monday and with that came the responsibility of being a 22 year old white female living in the new "changed" America. Enough said about that... Any ways, it was a very relaxing day that included Mommy and Me massages and Sushi date. Then a visit to Riverside to have some of my favorite Red Velvet cake with my bestest of friends and then my ISP meeting. Best part was coming home to a bouquet of daisies from T. Unfortunately, Birthdays have to end... and the party hats have to go away...

But not for me!!!! I got an extra day! Lucky me:) I sometimes feel like I have two families. I am lucky enough that God has blessed me with one but I feel like I have two! I got to spend the evening with T's family... It was so fabulous. We had some delicious pizza... great company... many laughs... and to top it all off I had a birthday fruit pizza cake with candles! I am proud to say I got all candles out in one BIG breath and I made a terrific top secret birthday wish!!!!

Best feeling in the world is knowing that I have so many that love me... I am blessed beyond words and I hope they know that I LOVE THEM ALL!!!!

Seducing Eyes... haha

Let the Birthday Celebrations begin!!!! Yes, my week long celebration had a early kick off on St. Patty's day!!!! This is how it went...

My morning started off as any other. I woke up from a fit-full sleep to singing birds and buzzing bees... I rolled myself out of bed and went to the kitchen to have some breakfast tea. I looked at the clock and decided that it was time to get ready for the special day that lay ahead. If you know me at all I like surprises but they stress me out! I had no idea what Trav had planned all I knew was that I had to meet him at 11ish and to wear comfy clothes.

So once I finished dolling myself up( I would like to add that I was having a great hair day... it doesn't happen that much so I feel like it needs to be mentioned) any ways I got in my car and headed out. I would also like to say that I figured out how to out smart all surprises... I packed an additional set of clothes!!! You can take that one to the bank!

By the time I got to my hunny I was starting to get nervous. Not bad nervous the exciting "I don't know what is going to happen" nervous. Well, we started driving which included interesting conversations, karaoke, and some sweet dance moves. I was given a box and in it was 2 tickets to Disneyland not only were they tickets they were Season Pass tickets!!!! It was the gift that keeps on giving!!!!!!!

To say that I was surprised would be an understatement! I was so happy and excited! We went to Bubba Gump's Shrimp Co. it was super delicious and I would like to announce that we won the trivia game!!! Go us! We spent the rest of the day at the happiest place on earth! It was a great day full of laughs, inside jokes and of course Captain EO!!!! Can't wait to do it again:)

So yesterday I got to spend my entire day with the greatest guy in the world and yes my only follower!!! The times we get to spend together are always... incredible, magical, superb, magnificent, entertaining, precious, or extraordinary or just AMAZING... well whatever word describes it I love the time I get to spend with TJM!!!!

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I went on a beautiful trail ride this morning on my golden beast. It was so re-freshing! I saw so many baby bunnies and freshly grown wild grass. I love being out in nature. Oh and all the wild flowers growing makes me want to skip merrily!

I decided that I want to fill my room with flowers! I know that sounds like a big mess but I want to wake up every morning smelling and seeing flowers. There can't possibly be a better thing to wake up to then dozens of colors about you! Ok I lied there is one better... but for now it will be my flowers...

Now, the only problem in seeing this happen is that I have no garden to grow flowers... I guess I could go to the florist to get some flowers too... Better yet does anyone want to donate to the "Sarah waking up to Flowers Foundation"??? I like all types of flowers:)

Well moving on its Spring Break for all us CBU folk aka its my last official spring break!!!! Thus far its been nice... I am really excited to see what the rest of the week has in store! I am very excited that I get to spend it with all my closest friends as well as my love, Trav. My BIG birthday is coming up! 22 on the 22nd!!!! Yeah for the golden year!!!!

Flowers are love's truest language.
Park Benjamin

Spring brings in flowers...

I love spring...

i lOVE blossoms...

I Love baby animals...

i lOVE spring sunshine..

I Love the sweet flowers growing...

i lOVE that Spring is natures way for saying "Let's Party"...

I Love that the spirit of love is everywhere...

i lOVE that the sun is warm and the wind is cool...

Oh Spring time the joy you bring me!!!! It means I am closer to my birthday... closer to Spring Break... closer to Easter Break .... closer to school ending... closer to everything... the possibilities are endless I am just a step away...

Oh Capybara!!!!

And it is March let the Madness begin...

Have you ever felt like you are at a crossroad in life... I was thinking how life is full of these crossroads one decision can change every crossroad from here on out. Thats a lot to tackle! Well, I think it is. Its not like I am at a crossroad at all I was just painting an image in my head of a clear blue sky with a dirt crossroad leading into two very different directions which got me thinking of how the road you take can change your entire life.

Graduation is a mere 56 days away... and next week I get to order my cap and gown. I never thought this day would come but now looking back it came pretty quick. I was recalling my first year away at college and now my final year at college. Its funny how people change in a matter of years. I guess in preschool the teacher did have a deeper meaning when we watched a caterpillar turn into a butterfly... and all along I thought it was a science project showing us how creatures grow.

Any ways, life has been pretty low key since my last entry nothing really sticks out that has happened... but I did officially decide that I really don't like ceramics its my most stressful class! Yes, I have a pretty easy schedule but that class stresses me out because I like things just so and the clay will not listen to me! My other art class Art Appreciation will be the death of me! Thanks goodness I have a friend in there with me or else we would have big problems. Other than those two my classes aren't too terrible.

I found out you can legally own a capybara!!! I think I need one:) I also really need to go to StageCoach!!!! And I also really need to get a job! Even though I am working a little now... you can never work too much.... ok maybe you can;)

Well till next time...

"Three things will last forever--faith, hope, and love--and the greatest of these is love." -Corinthians 13:13

Somewhere over the Rainbow....

I love the song "Somewhere over the Rainbow" there are so many renditions of that song and each of them make my heart sing. The simplicity of the lyrics can just move you and those singing it can make you feel different things. Currently, I am listening to the Kris Allen version.

My week thus far has been wonderful! Every Monday I get to see my ISP group which we now call ourselves Team SAS (South Asia Storytelling). I am so inspired by each of my group members. Each of them brings a new aspect or view on things which is so intriguing just to see how some people see something so differently then I had seen it the first time.

I have this new habit I have picked up... ok maybe its not a new habit but more people are picking up on it. It goes like this I will be telling a story, asking a question, or giving an idea and mid-sentence or thought I stop talking. The worst part is I think I said the next part but I never did. So people have to fill in the blanks or ask me. Which I respond with "what" along side a blank deer in the headlights stare. I guess its comical but its somewhat embarrassing because it has now crossed into text messages!

Well thats all I have so far... but I will leave with this

Romans 8:38-39
"And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Getting Burned in February!!!!

Thats right! I got a little color today. I personally don't see it as being burned but my mother begs to differ. I sometimes think I am some kind of islander that never burns but maybe I did a little today.

This past weekend was picture perfect! I went shopping for the first time at Nordstrum's Rack in San Diego... can I just say I LOVED it! Discounts galore sign me up!!! I bought some pretty sweet clothes and when I went to check out I definitely couldn't remember my pin number for my debit card... I told the cashier guess thats a good thing because that means I'm not spending money he fired back yeah but you also aren't depositing money into your account... OUCH!!! I got burned!

On Saturday I got to spend my day giving speeches which I throughly enjoy.... ya right! But when I got home I got a lovely surprise of some beautiful tulips from my valentine. I love flowers! Valentine's Day was perfect! I was surprised with a trip to Newport Beach for some crab action at Joe's Crab Shack. Besides getting crabs we had some fun drinks, chocolate cake and some good laughs with CT an Monica.

The rest of this week has been pretty typical... I did get to lay out a little today and get some rays which always makes me feel good. I still haven't started on any of my projects that are due within the next weeks but I feel like I will get to them soon enough.

Well better get back to procrastinating... Till next time may you grow in life, love and faith.

Let your love be like the misty rains, coming softly, but flooding the river.

I got back from ITW!!!! What a great weekend... exhausting... yes, powerful... absolutely. I am even more excited about my trip then before. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me! Its funny looking back just a year ago I know that I would be no where near where I am today with my thoughts and beliefs. My faith has grown by leaps and bounds but I know that I have a long journey ahead... but I guess that is what life is for.

So far this week I have been on remission I would say. Just taking things day by day. Trying to recover. But at the same time thinking of all I have to do. This semester is almost hitting MID-TERM season:( but at the same time its invigorating knowing that graduation is so soon!!!! Due dates are coming fast so I really have to get my butt in gear and get things done!

This weekend is also that infamous Hallmark holiday. I'm not really sure what the game plan is for the day but I am sure whatever it is will be funtastic! In sport of this loving season or day... I would like to say that I am the luckiest girl in the whole world! I know all girls think they are but I totally am! I love quoting movies and I think this quote fits most perfectly with how I feel...

You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you, Peter Pan. That's where I'll be waiting."-Tinkerbell~ Peter Pan

Well, I hope everyone's weekend was great and that every one has a lovely weekend with the one they care most about. Love can be found on a street corner, on a bus, or in a classroom but wherever you find it you must hold on to it because living a life with out it is like living a life with a missing piece of a puzzle.

Let the love grow...