I Was Here...

Tomorrow is the BIG DAY!!! Tomorrow, at this time I am going to go back to the grounds I just graduated from to meet at that globe and put my hand print on the world. I am embarking on my trip to South Asia. A three week journey that starts with a 18 hour flight...

So what have I been up to... well since the last time I posted lots have changed and happened. I am working three jobs. The first is lifeguarding for Special Olympics, second working for the city for the 5th year now as a lifeguard, swim teacher, and water aerobics instructor, and the third is a job at Miramonte Wineries were I work in the tasting room. I love all my jobs they all offer something different and challenging!

As far as the changing... I am not the same person that grabbed that diploma. I am a girl that wants just one thing in life... I don't want a fancy car, or a diamond ring, I don't want to live in a big house, I don't need to be a billionaire, I don't want to live a life that is meaningless... so this past month I have been focusing on what God wants me to do and what he has to offer me. I want to be able to look back on my life and say yes I glorified God and I was able to be used by him. Its hard.. Its not easy to do.. giving up your own desires for his, you may lose friends, you may gain friends, you may even change someone's life and be that inspiration to them. The life I am living is by no means easy but grain by grain I am letting go..

It reminds me of when you go to the beach and grab a handful of sand.. when you squeeze the sand and try to hold onto it.. it seems to fall from your hands more quickly.. I have tried to hold onto things hoping they can answer me but in the end if I just let it go and give it to God my life seems to hold more meaning without the garbage of the world.

I guess what I am saying is that I am ready to move on towards who I am supposed to be and I had to understand and let go of the things I can't control.

So what am I feeling right now... I am worried, I am anxious, excited and apprehensive for the journey I am about to embark on. I can't explain what it is but I have a feeling that this trip is going to do something for me bigger than I can even imagine. While I am away I hope that you all challenge yourselves to live a life that is meaningful instead of living for the meaningless..

"Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ. Then, whether I come and see you or only hear about you in my absence, I will know that you stand firm in one spirit, contending as one man for the faith of the gospel without being frightened in any way by those who oppose you. This is a sign to them that they will be destroyed, but that you will be saved—and that by God."

Philippians 1:27-28

Till we meet again on this walk through some sunflower fields I hope you leave your mark on this world and stop every now and then to look back on where you have come and look forward to where you are going...