If you wish it?

So its been awhile since I blogged. But in the mean time I have done some soul searching... well at least thats what I am calling it. I have decided that I want to be a Emergency Dispatcher. I sat in twice with the OCSD and it was fantastic. So very interesting. Every day you get a different call. I applied to two different places but didn't get in because I wasn't qualified. One because I had to already be currently employed by that Sheriff Department and the other was because I didn't take a test. It was such a let down but I have to realize to not take it personally... someone really smart told me that. So I am keeping my chin up or at least trying to:)

I have been so blessed this year with amazing friends. Every time, I hang out with new friends and old friends I realize this. Not only do we have all the same corky one liners we all have a bond that ties us all together. I absolutely adore the adventures I go on with all of them. And I secretly laugh about the silly moments that make them unique. Best friends are hard to find but I have found mine. This is a special shout out to Travis for making me smile like this!!!! And making me feel like this! You are the best boyfriend a girl could ever ask for:D

This post has turned into a reflection of the first month of the new year I suppose. I can't believe that this year is pretty much in full swing! I am so excited about what lies ahead even though it sometimes stresses me out. I have to realize that what I think is too stressful or too big to handle God made the world in 6 days... He can clearly take care of my small problems.

Well till next time... Wishes do come true if you take the chance...

Bloom, Grow, Love

I can't help but start day dreaming when the weather gets cold and the rain starts to fall in steady sheets. Wishing I was sitting next to a crackling fire wrapped up in a blanket sipping hot tea next to the one I love. Sounds like a perfect rain date to me.

Peter Pan, who is my favorite Disney character, has always been quoted "I'll never grow up, never grow up, never grow up! Not me!" I always wanted to live my life that way. Never growing up. But in the end when I tried not to grow up I inevitably did. Life is all about the lessons you learn and how each one of those lessons makes you who you are today. I was wrestling with this idea. I decided its like all the things that happen to you, all the people you meet are all part of you. Every experience is like a tool and with each of these tools you are creating your own unique tool box. Makes you think that, well at least makes me think, that you should embrace everything that happens and try to make everything a positive instead of a negative.

""The reason birds can fly and we can't is simply because they have perfect faith, for to have faith is to have wings.""
— J.M. Barrie (Peter Pan in Kensington Gardens)

My goal is to live my life... not focusing on the inevitable but instead by faith. Faith in others, in my own decisions and most importantly faith in God.

Sunflower lovin'

Today was my second day of school which may sound strange since I started on Thursday but since I am only going twice a week I pile 18 units into those two days. School had an interesting start today. I was exhausted from the time I woke up until the time my last class was dismissed.

Now I am sure you are wondering why I was so tired... Well I went to the Kings hockey game on Monday night with Travis. This was my first hockey game and I am sure it won't be my last. The thrill of it all was great. The worst part was the fact that we lost and I didn't get that free McFlurry they promised us if the Kings scored a point in the remaining 2 minutes. I guess there is always next time.We ended up meeting friends at the game and went out to BJ's.

I decided that LA freeways are insane it took us ten minutes to get on one freeway because all the onramps were closed. But it was cause of some funny memories... By the time we got to Riverside it was around 1:30 am!!! Which only means one thing... a very sleepy drive back to Murrieta.

Now onto my deep thoughts of the day...

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Everything happens for a reason... and smelling the flowers along the way makes me appreciate those who are in my life who love me for me.

A Crop Worth Harvesting...

Today was the first day of school... I won't go as far as saying this is my last time suiting up for my first day of school since I have no idea what the future holds for me. I was imagining the other day where I see myself in the future and I still can't come up with a definite answer. I sometimes wish I had one of those all seeing globes that just tells me how it is. But where is the adventure in that...

This semester is taking on a artistic approach... With 3 out of the 6 classes being art related. Should be interesting... I sometimes wish I would have minored in art but too late for that now I only have 110 more days!!! But maybe in those days I can learn more and become closer to the greats like 20th century fauvism with Vincent van Gogh or the highly graphic Andy Warhol... Most likely not but I dare to dream about it.

I look forward to the upcoming months ahead but I keep reminding myself to slow down and appreciate all that God has blessed me with. I am ever amazed of all that he has given me.

The sunflower field is not blooming yet but the prospects of a good crop are on the horizon...

A untouched crop...

Its a fresh start as some like to believe... the drop of the ball is a symbol of a clean slate. A untouched field if you will but for me the New Year is just another sign that I am growing up. This year is bringing some interesting events that I am oh so excited about. But a little re-cap I feel is necessary because you can't move ahead without looking back.

Last year was a whirl wind! If you followed my last blog which I abused you would know that I had quite the emotional venture with a four legged friend of mine, Tanner. I met the most amazing man ever who has quickly turned into my best friend and I can go to him whenever I run into a bump in the road. I went through times of tears and laughter. Made many friends... lost some. But in the end I learned a lot in 2009 and am ready to start 2010!!!!

So let 2010 begin and let the good times roll....

The first adventure, is the day I have been dreaming about for the past four years. I didn't think I was ever going to make it. I seriously considered dropping out but some centrifugal force kept me coming back. And in just a few short months I will be in a gown and cap making my way down a grassy field to get a diploma!

The second, is a huge trip that will take me across 7,000 miles and a 20 hour flight. Worth it... absolutely! I am headed to South Asia! So excited to get immersed in a foreign country!

The third, is a vacation of a lifetime with my family.

I guess you could say that my 2010 is going to be one of travels and life experiences. But what I will be doing in between remains unwritten. My walk in a sunflower field has yet to begin but I am excited to smell the flowers along the way...