Take a step...

I guess we are at the mid-way point in January. This is when things are going to get crazy. School is back in session, getting more hours at work and riding my beautiful horse. Balancing is going to soon become my middle name...

Today( or I should say tonight) was my first day in class.. I have already been in a few since a majority of the the five are online. It was a nice intro... not sure what to expect but if it is anything like last semesters class I will be intrigued.

Have you ever had that feeling in the pit of your stomach like something is going to happen or something already has... or maybe its just that you forgot to feed the dog... Well that is how I am feeling at the moment. For no obvious reason, other than I am stressed about my new work load.

With stress comes fear and that fear leads you to hold on when you should just let go. Some problems are too BIG for you to solve by yourself. Take a step... Challenge yourself to take the step to let go.

"Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.

~Matthew 14:29

Peter took that step towards Jesus when he called.. Was it scary? YES. But he still did it. Just like him I am taking that step of faith to leap out of myself and let go of the past, let go of the things I can't control and let go of what I think is best... trusting in the one that knows it all.

With that I end my evening sitting in bed dreaming of how beautiful the world is... and how stress can make it seem so ugly. Let go, I keep telling myself. Anyone want to join???

Raining on Monday....

Nerves... They always seem to get the best of me! I am actually not nervous but more or less stressed but my stress comes out in waves of nerves. Its so very contradicting of me because I tell people especially those closest to me not to worry all will work out.

Luke 12:24 says:

"Consider the ravens, for they neither sow nor reap; they have no storeroom nor barn, and yet God feeds them; how much more valuable you are than the birds!"

I have quoted that verse so many times. One person shared it with me and it really impacted me. Yet I still forget. I guess if I were perfect I wouldn't be on earth now would I?!

This new year is one that is definitely going to be one with the biggest challenges that I have faced and so has my family. So many different things that are being thrown our way but I keep reminding myself that if God truly didn't think we could handle it he wouldn't have brought it to us. Sarah Palin wrote that in her new book America by Heart and I had to quote that. If you are looking for a nice read I would suggest it!

Some of you know that I am a work out junky. I love to run it is the one place I feel so out of this world. Its actually one of the reasons I started blogging. I always run and think, while writing my thoughts to the beat of my feet. Running through fields that are full of life is my favorites. I recommend going out in nature and trying it. If you aren't a runner just go out there and walk take pictures breathe it all up!

Anyhooters, I consider myself in good shape but today I decided to do jumping jacks but not just 10 NO I have to prove something to the macho men next to me I decided to whip out a solid 50! Right after I finished ( I was being all sorts of cocky) I went to grab my weights one step into it I pulled my hamstring! So as I am typing this I have a heating pad on my hammy!!!! Good goly! Thats what I get for trying to strut my stuff!!! haha

I am going to leave you with this thought... Although, sometimes it feels you have the weight of the world on your shoulders and you can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel... focus on what you know

"GOD WONT GIVE YOU SOMETHING YOU CANT HANDLE WITHOUT HIM"

Trust in yourself and in him all will pass!

May your gardens withstand through all the storms to see the the dawning of a new light...

2011!!!!!

It's the New Year! I made it! Through thick and thin I made it to 2011!!!! Not alone of course but with God as my center I was able to go through it all.

Now it has literally only been about 14 hours into the New Year and I have already had to make a decision that I was really not wanting to make. But I made it.. I know I hurt this person but I know in my heart that I had to do it to save our friendship... I can only hope that one day they will understand and forgive me.

2 Corinthians 5:17

"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new."

How real is this verse? I am awed! What better way to start the new year than to know that all things become new when you believe in God! You could have a New Year like every day if you wanted to. If you take that step and trust in the Lord. And everything that you have gone through any misfortunes will be passed away!!!! Just gone!

Of course you will remember these moments and it they may hurt, they may cause you to cry and they may make you think you aren't good enough. But what is great is that you are good enough and all pains and tears are washed away. Day by day the wound won't be as painful. It just takes some time.

So with all this being said... I hope that the New Year provides us all with the opportunity to stretch beyond our comfort. Realize that you are worth it and now that with difficult decisions comes either great opportunities or disappointments. You don't have to go through the flower fields alone. Grab onto His ever loving hand and have faith that he will lead you in the right.